An update on my mom...
Things are looking pretty dire as of right now. Probably days, not longer. She\'s been in a delirium, heavily sedated state, yet also in a "terminal restlessness" in the past few days. It\'s so weird seeing a parent (pillar of strength) in a weak, vulnerable state. The docs are saying that this will be the last stage before she passes, and I\'m kind of scared.
Even with all the warning and preparation, I don\'t think anything can get a person ready for losing a parent. I\'m hoping she\'ll wake up in the next few days and be responsive enough for me to tell her everything that\'s been going through my mind.
Like, it\'s funny, there\'s a billboard that I pass by (near the Q bridge) everyday. It says: "Did you feel that bump? Cancer kills. Check yourself" It makes me wonder - if she\'d seen that billboard a year ago, if things might have been different?
:idunno: I dunno, I\'m rambling, but I guess I\'m glad I got to see her for these last few months and say goodbye.