wow joc. i\'m so sorry that it had to come to this.
i had to put my dog java down a few months ago and it was one of the hardest things i\'ve ever had to do..got her as a pup when i was 8. java was still happy and wagged her tail right up until the moment we had to put her to sleep, but her health was deteriorating so much everyday. i still miss her--especially when i go back to my parent\'s house and she\'s not around. it\'s so strange to not have her following me around the house and barking at all of the neighbors/mailman as she did for 14 years. even though i\'ll never have another dog like her, i hope to adopt another someday when i have the land to do so.
it\'s really heartbreaking to see your pet suffering when there isn\'t much that can be done for them. as much as we love our pets, it\'s a lot better for them to not live in pain.
when i had to put java to sleep, someone sent me that same excerpt on the rainbow bridge. my family kind of had a little day of rememberance for her and donated money to the animal shelter we adopted her from in long island. maybe doing something in memory of sadie can give you some relief. hang in there and try to think of how much of a difference sadie made in your life. i hope that when things settle down you are able to find another dog that will make you just as happy.